Last Monday I had received a Thai Massage and had a unusual response to it. I would love any of your comments or stories that may relate.
I was feeling like things were getting "closed off" for me.
I have been working a lot and I have been learn many new things. The past 3 years have been learning new things in Thai Massage, always just before I settle in to what I know I am thrust into more knowledge or put in places that push my capabilities further. To help with this I receive when I can, not as often as I would like. I bath vs. shower to soak and release. I pray/meditate again not a often as I would like but when I can (Not including when I give to/prep for a client/session that, fortunately, is constant). I only say this because it is the only thing that I consciously can think of that perhaps was causing a build up of stress.
But for the past 4 or so weeks I have been feeling "off" or "closed". I booked a special appointment at a bath house. The kind where you do a hot then cold then meditate circuit a few times. Even during the eucalyptus steam I, uncharacteristically, felt "noisy" in my mind. The next week I got an okay treatment, and then the following week I booked in with a Thai Massage practitioner that I love dearly and we had a session like no other.
The session was less movement than usual, and about 15 min into it my voice released. It was a surprise, I have always seen a release in Thai Massage as a good thing and I allowed my body and sprit to be more open. She extended the session until she felt that it was done and I felt lite and open. My pecs and my head felt "different" I was drawn to continue to touch these areas while we had a long follow up discussion. By the evening my left arm felt stiffish and I chose to spend some quality hang out time with my husband over an Epsom salt bath.
The next day was my day off. I woke up stiff all over, toes, joints, top of the head, face, inner elbows, all over. During the session she didn't work everywhere but it didn't matter if she worked the area or not I was equally stiff. I felt vulnerable (but I didn't label it as that then, only in hindsight do I use the word) I wouldn't even go outside on my day off, it was gorgeous out. I did have a bath.
The following day I had to work and so as the evening drew near I started to close and protect again and getting better. As I went to work over the next few days I felt more normal. All except I am having a hard time remembering things this week. Small tasks I am asked to do. I even write them down but forget to read the list. Driving to a new place I read the directions and 10 min later I need to read them again to make sure I didn't miss my turn off.
I have spoken to my Teachers and the practitioner and they have provided good insight, but I would love to connect with others over this experience and/or to move forward and grow even more. I am going for a follow up session tomorrow to see what will come of it. I am still unaware of the cause of the "closedness" in the first place.
this sounds like quite an experience. It seems to me that you must be sensitive to energetic movements in general. For a therapist this is a good thing since it will make it easier for you to feel what is going on with your clients. In regards to your reaction, I would assume that the closed or stiff feeling was probably not a reaction to the massage directly but caused by some other event in your life or energy. Some people are just more sensitive than others. Sensitivity is a good thing for therapists although it can make you more vulnerable at the same time. But this is still better than being totally unable to feel energy in yourself or others. You are probably a very good therapist, I would imagine.
I believe that you are right that it wasn't the physical part of the massage that mt body was reacting to.
I had my follow up session and it went well enough. We tried communicating verbally about what each person was sensing during the massage and in some ways it helped and in others it hindered. I found that I was being very careful with my body despite my intention to let it all relax and be open to the experience. I loved hearing the images that came to her mind as she worked on me but I found I was spending energy analyzing what I heard or on what I was saying when I saw or sensed something.
It has been quite an experience and I am glad to have these learning opportunity. I do wish that I had more information to add to and help interpret the experience, but that will come with repetition I am sure.
You are right, with practice and repetition many things will manifest themselves and become clear. Regarding talking about your experiences with the therapist who is working on you, you might find this article interesting:
I have read this post and want to share some interesting point about thai massage. Thai massage is a massage technique that originated in Thailand that is significantly influenced by the ancient Ayurvedic traditions from India. Hinduism and Therevada Buddhism are both practiced on this Thai style massage.
Darnell, actually according to Thai history, Thai Massage was brought to Thailand from India by a physician who was a contemporary of Buddha. His name is Shivaka Komarpaj and he is respected as the founder of Thai Massage. So the actual origin of Thai Massage is the yoga therapy system of India, which is quite evident when you compare many Thai Massage moves with yoga positions.